Worthy

People say Music is something that one can only feel. It tell you about Some stories. And the most amazing thing it tell you about your own life. Its impressive the way you can manipulate your words by your own mean. Well I love music. I learn to live music  after Jay left me. We both were in relationship from last 1.5 years But he fell for someone else and left me alone. I was in truly love with him. I was broken but music help me to relive. Its been more than 1year after break up but I never thought of having a Boyfriend all wanted after it too live my life in own style and Devoted to Music.

‘Nandani!’ Someone shouted my loudly the voice seem to be enthusiastic.

It was Seema came running towards me. She was breathing Heavily. ‘Nandani, See what I got for you.’

‘First you calm down. Have water. And let me see this.’ I made her sit and took the broacher from her hand.

I read it a aloud. ‘So the broacher is about.. Band wars. What the Fish?! Why are you bringing it to me? I don’t have a Band I am me and myself. And you know it very well I suppose.’ I said it rudely.

‘F**k it shit happens. I am sorry I got really excited for you. By the way Chirag was asking for you.’ She said it by widening her eyes.

‘What do he want?’ I asked.

It was a myth or what I don’t know but People in college were fascinated by me. They use to say I was one of the Hot personality of college. Height 5’6 and Fair color is that all needed to be a good Person. Well I don’t give damn. Seema is the only one for me. I never been interested to make new Friends.

‘I don’t know. Maybe he wanted to include you in his Band as Chandra passed out this year and He need a New Drummer.’ She replied.

‘Oh yeah! And that jerk seriously thinks I’ll say yes.’ I said with an attitude. And then we said it together ‘Dumb Ass’ And Give tinted smile with Hi5.

We were leaving for a class. And the bad luck was waiting..

‘Nandani!’ Chirag was waiting for me outside the class.

‘Hi!’ I replied back.

‘Did you read about the Band war competition?’ He asked.

‘Yes! I did. And I am alone. I don’t want to join your band. I just don’t want too.’ I replied uninterestingly. ‘And ask no question and hear no lies.’ I further added.

He made Puppy faces and said ‘okay its your decision not mine. But if you ever felt so let me know. You know I can always wait for you.’ He made a wink and left. And Thank god he left as for his last statement and for that ugly wink I can Kick his ass.

I entered in a class and sit behind Seema. And we started with our Girl gossip. I have crush on a guy Parag. He was from Hotel management Branch. Well I don’t know I feel from his body language that he do also like me. But after Jay I never wanted to get into such things. I still miss him some time. But yeah he’ll get what he deserve. So about the Parag he is 6 feet long Dashing personality. He’s fabulous. And People also say that he belongs to bad Group His past wasn’t so good. He want to improve but now no one like him so. But he’s good the time I have spend with him he’s at least been nice to me.

As soon as our class got over I rang up Parag to ask about his volley Match.

‘Hello babes!’ Parag answered the call. ‘I just finished my match want to meet up for lunch?’

I laughed soothingly and answered ‘I was about to ask that. And well My answer is Yes!’ I replied and added ‘Sunshine Restro in 15 mins’

‘Well Honey anything for you.’ He said it in a very pleasant voice.

I hang off the call. And told Seema about it.

‘Listen, Me and Parag are going out for lunch. So, I’ll meet you up at 5 in evening.’ I said in running voice.

‘Why don’t you understand he’s not a good Guy?’

‘Ok-ok No lecture right now I have to leave take care’ I said and ran away from there.

 After 15 mins I met Parag at Sunshine Restro.

‘Hey! How are you? How was your match?’ I pulled my seat and started with a queries in which Parag interrupted in between and started saying ‘Ma’am please relax. I answer all your questions But you first have seat and order the food cause I’m damn hungry.’

He handed over me the menu. And further added ‘I want to eat your choice of Food today.’

I smiled and order the food. Till the food came we discuss our day. And then we had our food. And we were about to left When Parag ask me for the dinner. ‘very nice taste Nandani. I would like to have a pleasing dinner with you. Can I?’ He asked.

I can’t deny as I enjoyed having Lunch with him. I like spending time with him so I said yes. And we decided to meet at Night for dinner.

I went to hostel and told Seema about it. I was super excited for Night.

I decided dress to wear curled up my hairs.

And then Time came when we meet ‘You are looking beautiful.’

I smiled an replied ‘You too sir’.

He took me in by holding my hand. The place was fully decorated by Red balloons and chairs for only two. I looked to him. And then he  goes on to his knees. And asked me to be his forever. I was Dumbstruck I just took one promise for him To be mine forever and will never leave me alone. He accepted both of them. And the Night become special for me. But somewhere I was feeling that I should have told Seema about it. It was so hard and fast. But Moment was special I was holding his hand Dinner from single plate. Everything was quite romantic. I felt in love with that moments.

I told Seema next morning. As I spent whole night with Parag. I also told Seema about shifting in Live in relationship soon. She did not wanted to except it. She started staying off from me and more with Chirag. Seema and me keep falling apart as Parag and me keep falling more for each other.

Parag was one year senior with me. So he has to leave in few months as he got his placement in another city.

We both were on bed. I was hugging him tight. Then when I asked her.

‘Parag?’ I stopped for lil and when He removed hair from my face I continued ‘ So you’ll leave in next 2-3 months?’

‘Baby I’m not leaving you. I’m leaving this city and that also not forever. I’ll keep coming here to meet you. And then call and everything are here.’

I cut him down in between and said ‘This will become Long distance relationship. Will you think it will work?’ I asked.

He crossed his fingers with mine and said ‘We will make it work. Now close your eyes and sleep.’

In few months Parag left. I somehow try to become friends with Seema. Seema and me became friends again. So I started to get along with Chirag also. But with my increasing friendship me Parag was falling apart.

Seema and Chirag were at my apartment. I had a fight with Parag that night. But I try to kept myself happy in front of them. Seema has to left early that day there were some issues at her flat in Hostel.

‘Chirag, Can I bring you something?’ I asked.

‘Yeah your real smile.’ He replied.

I exclaimed ‘what?!’ and further continued ‘What do you mean?’

‘I mean Ms. Nandani Sharma the smile I die for is missing. This isn’t your real one.’ He looked directly into my eyes and said.

I turn face around and said ‘No! Nothing like that.’

He said my copying me ‘No Nothing like that.’ We both laughed together. And in middle I started crying. He took my face into his hand. Rubbed my tears with his thumbs and come close and hugged me tight. And I said ‘Chirag, Things are not working between Me and Parag.’

He tried to make me understand ‘Give it some time.’

‘I want to meet him. Please take me there. Please.’ I cried and cried.

He Pull down his bike to take me there. It was hardly 5 hrs. journey and we were there. I knocked at the gate of Parag. In mind I knew he will be surprised by seeing me. But I didn’t knew as soon as he’ll open the door I’ll be surprised. There was a girl on his bed naked. He was standing in front of me wrapped in bed sheet.

I leave without reacting Chirag was on his bike I sat back on him and ask him too take me back. He asked me number of times what happened but I didn’t replied as we reached home I locked up myself in my room and  cried out hell out of me. Chirag keep on knocking and when then he finally knocked down the door. He didn’t asked question and wrapped me up in his arms. And said ‘I know you are going through tough phase but I am here. I wont  leave you. I am not asking relationship. I just want to fulfill my friendship duties.’ He made me slept on his lap hold my hands and promise to Never go. 

As soon as time starting to pass by. I joined up Chirag band. Chirag never left me alone even for a minutes. He started to become a reason for my Smile and even sometime for my cry. We weren't in relationship as I didn't wanted any. And Finally a time came When music brought us close. 
It was the last day of our college. He wen't up on terrace and shouted loudly..
'Naaaandaaaaaniiiii!' We all were on down stairs. All started to looking at him.
He continued 'Nandani! I love you. And I promise I never will leave you. You are the heart beat of mine. And I don't care you'll accept it or not but I love you. And at the last day this song is only for you..'
And he sang the song 'Soniyooo Kya kahu Tujhe dekhta hoon toh sochta hoon..'
I ran on terrace We both kept looking in each other eyes and a tear rolled down from my cheeks. He pulled me closer and Hugged me tight. The whole university was looking at us. He kissed my forehead and said 'I love you Soniyo! You are my world and my life. I couldn't stop blushing. The music become a reason to make me smile. Its been 2yrs we are together and about to get married soon.

Sudden Accidents

‘I Like the chef Amar. See the color of baked onions its crispy brown.’ I said.

‘Then get married to him Koyal.’ He replied in anger.

‘You serious?! I would love too.’ I asked with mesmerizing my eyes.

‘Shut up! Koyal. I am trying discuss about our marriage but it doesn’t seem you are even interested. Do you want to marry me or not?’ I said out of frustration And why not? As I was trying to deviate our marriage topic.

‘Amar, I don’t want to get married right now. I have my studies to complete.’ I replied by holding his hand.

‘You are doing your PG course. You are already done with the Graduation.’ He said.

‘After marriage I can’t study. Please try to understand.’ I replied.

At another moment Amar phone rang up.

‘Lets go Koyal I leave you at House. I have some important meeting. We’ll discuss it later.’

I made an Idiotic faces. Stand up and put my hands around his neck.

‘Koyal! What are you doing? It’s a Public place.’

‘Shona! Don’t worry I love you a lot sweetie My life is almost impossible without you.’

We both looked at each and smiled. He rubbed his nose to mine and said ‘Lets go madam.’

He dropped me at home. And came home late night. We use to live together.

‘Hmm.. Came so early baby?’ I asked sarcasm on the door.

‘You see I have two girlfriends I need to give time to both.’ He replied.

‘Yeah whatever.’ I went into kitchen to serve dinner.

I didn’t even get to know when Amar came in. And Hugged me from behind. And whispered in my ears. ‘Koyal be my life partner. I never been so sure about anything in my life more than you.’

I turned my face little and kissed him. ‘I am hungry.’

He tooked a deep breathe and said ‘Koyal!’

And more sweetly I replied ‘Amar!’

We had dinner together. And then went to bed.

I always used to sleep on his arms. ‘Amar, We always going to sleep on same pillow doesn’t matter how angry we are from each other.’

‘Okay! And then?’

‘I’ll come above you. And move my hands in your hair.’

‘Okay! Then’ He asked by giving naughty smile.

‘I don’t know’ I said out of shyness.

And we made love whole night long.

It was near 5’o clock when Amar phone rang up.

I never found him so tensed then this. I tried to ask but he was so tensed that he just packed his bag and leave in hurry! And just I’ll be back soon.

Weeks keep on passing on but Amar never called up. After a month a door bell rang. I went to open then door. It was Amar. I wanted to hug him. But he didn’t allowed me to do that. 2-3 peoples where with him. He packed up all his things.

Till all the packages were loading in truck. I ask him.. ‘Amar What’s going on?’

‘Everything is over Koyal.’ He replied.

‘I am not getting anything?’ I asked.

‘My mom passed away. She just wanted a one thing from me. She wanted me to get married. I am a married man now.’ A tear rolled from his eyes. He fell down on knees and continued ‘Please forgive me Koyal. I can never love anyone more than you. Its was hardest part.’

I didn’t know what to say. And he left. He left forever.

After 8 years In mall.

‘Mom! I am going at PlayStation.’ Shreya said.

Shreya is my 5 year old Baby girl. After 3 years Amar left me I completed my studies and got married to Shree. He is in Dubai for some meeting.

‘Mom?’

‘Yes baby!’ I replied.

‘Mumma meet Arpit. We both meet at Playstation.’

‘Hi Arpit. Where’s your mom?’

‘Aunchi (Aunty) Mumma ish (is) Not here. Papa came with me.’

A voice came from behind. ‘Arpit!’

I turned up and see It was amar. We both keep looking to each other.

‘Hi, Have a seat?’

He took a seat and asked ‘ How are you?’

‘I am good. You?’

‘Fine. So she is your daughter?’

‘Yeah. Arpit is really cute.’

‘Hehe.. Thanks. Shreya too.’

Out of all his guts he asked ‘Have you been lonely?’

And out of all my guts I replied ‘People in love are never lonely.’

And we smiled together.

Balcony Love

If there is no Romeo and Juliet might be balcony’s have never played a great role in love stories. Well being Mumbai girl standing in a balcony is like you are trying to breathe and in some moments u realize its better to breathe inside the house. Busy Roads, Beeping horns mmm.. well it irritates me. But I live on the fifth floor where sun rays directly came into my room from that balcony. I never thought to cover up with curtain cause without curtain it give me a filmy look. I love to work sitting out there.

I am Natasha Ramchandani from Delhi but I got selected as the editor in TOI of Mumbai so I am living here alone. My work is to improve other people work as I love to read.

‘Hi Natasha, Good morning. Rohan want to see you’ Maggie called up.

She is the receptionist and appointed with me so we were best friend.

‘Anything serious?’ I asked

‘I don’t know. Well all the best’

Well Rohan is the CEO of this company as well as my best friends. He is the only guy I love to talk but when he is in office He’s fully professional.

‘May I come in sir?’ I knocked the door.

‘Natasha, Yeah sure I was waiting for you. Please Have sit’

I took a sit ‘Yes’

‘Umm.. Natasha being a fabulous editor this this time I want you to write something. I want you to start a new column in the TOI. Talking about the practical story and discussing a social issues. If you are getting what I mean?’

‘Are you serious?’ I asked.

‘Yes’ He replied.

I was looking for this opportunity from last few months. Whenever me and Rohan went out for dinner I always use to say him.

I jumped with happiness and Hugged him. He said ‘Natasha relax we are in office right now’.

I took a step back and with shyness I took my hair backside of the ear. And smiled.

As I was walking out the door he called my Name ‘Natasha?’

I turned back ‘Yes?’

‘If you are free tonight can we go for dinner tonight?’ He asked.

‘Well yes. Did I ever say no to you?’

He smiled. And I left.

We both have been many time times together So I dressed up as usual.

I entered the restaurant. He was sitting there. In the perfect suit. Many of the time he directly use to came for meeting so I didn’t asked for the reason of his dress.

‘Hi’ I greeted him.

‘Hi, Looking good’ It was the first time he said this to me.

‘Are you ok Rohan?’

‘Yeah! It’s a big celebration day.’

‘Hmm. Thanks to you.’ And we cheered our champion glasses.

We got drunk that night. We laughed together. We dance together.

‘Natasha, come I leave you home.’

I smiled and sit in his car.

I asked him ‘Come in for a drink’

He was standing in my balcony I played a sweet music. I made a drink for him and for myself, both. And went out in balcony.

‘Natasha, I never knew world can be so beautiful. And you know what makes it more beautiful, its you.’

I give a finch of smile. We both look deeply in each other eyes. He moves close to me. Even I can’t resist his breath I closed my eyes and That balcony become a part of my love story.

We both started spending time together. We both become a life to each other.

After few months. At the awards ceremony..

‘And the award for the best column goes to…’

Rohan and I was sitting together. I was holding his hand tightly..

And the name announced.. ‘Natasha Ramchandani’

I Looked towards Rohan kissed him tight and then went to take up my award.

When everyone is congratulating me, a voice came behind from me.. ‘That’s a great technique took your boss in control and here you go.’ That was the first time. Rohan hold my hand and said let it go.

But the things keep happening like that to me in everyday routine. Peon to a the company’s director keep saying it to me. Out of that I went in Rohan cabin. I threw my file on his desk with anger. And said ‘I want to leave this job.’

 Rohan stood up ‘What?! I worked on you not like that. Because of few people you want to leave this job?’

‘What should I do then? The way people look at me makes me frustrated Rohan. I am not a bloody slut.’

He slapped me. I got on my knees. He came on his knees too. Hugged me and said ‘Natasha, You mean a world to me. I can’t let you go. I worked hard for my position in this job I cant even let it go too.’

‘But I can’t work here. I need to go. This is my Resignation. I am going back to Delhi. Mom dad wants me to get married now. I am sorry!’

I ran from there.

Week passed by but Rohan never called neither He came to see me. I was finished up with my packing. Standing in the same balcony thinking what I have lost and what I have earned. I took a deep breath and said ‘I miss you Rohan’

‘I missed you too doll’ It was a voice of Rohan. I turned around but no one was there. Gate was locked.

‘Oye! Miss Dumbs. I am here’

‘Oh my god! Rohan Why are you hanging on the pipe?’

‘Cause I didn’t find any other way to say sorry. You wanted a Romeo Juliet. So I created one for you.’

I smiled like an idiot. ‘Stupid! Give me your hand’ I pulled him in.

With that puppy face he said ‘sorry!’

And this time I moved close to him to kiss.

He said ‘ If you are there in my life everything is interesting. Everything worth it. But I can’t lose you. The week without you is No no. I can’t imagine. I don’t want anything what I want is only you. We’ll both together create a new world.’

We both hugged each other tightly. He kissed my forehead. And one more balcony become dedicated to a love story.

P.S. Love is between a two people not between a whole world. People you truly wants to be together.

Love Story to be Killed (26/11)

‘Good Morning My dear hubby! Get up. Here is you tea.’ I whispered in his ears.

‘Mmm.. Good morning shona.’ He replied.

We were just married.Living in Melbourne. Cause Prithvi has his job here. Basically Prithivi belongs from New Delhi. But we are happy here. Its an arranged marriage but it didn't took me a minute too fall in love with him.

We had our tea together as we decided on our engagement the every night and the every morning we both will be together.

‘Prithivi, I think I should look out for job here. I get bore sitting alone here.’

‘But Sanya, I’ll earn for you and you shop for me and yourself. How are ideal.’ He put his head on my lap.

I move my hand through his hair. ‘Mmm.. But still.’

‘If you feel so. Then and ok. And if you need any help I’ll be there’ He replied.

‘Yes sir. But Now,get up and get ready for office. I make up your breakfast’

‘Ok Memsab as per your wish.’ He replied.

 I was cooking his breakfast while he came from behind and hugged me.

And whispered in my ears ‘Baby! What if I don’t go office today and spend my whole day with you.’

‘Ok. But why will you that?’ I asked.

‘Cause you are the most beautiful wife of mine and I have to leave for India tomorrow. I have a meeting in Mumbai.’

I turned my in anger‘What? And you saying it now? You going alone?’

‘No sanya! I’ll be leaving you at Delhi and then going for Mumbai meeting. Cause mom want us to be there for sometime and I can’t get any other best opportunity than this.’

‘That Nice idea. But why can’t I come Mumbai with you?’

‘Because for Mumbai only one person package is there.’ He said by making a cute lil puppy face.

I kissed on his forehead and said ‘Ok baby!’

Suddenly his phone rang up. ‘It is from office. I come back in minute’

I arranged our breakfast on table.

He came back and said‘Sanya there is a very important meeting So I have to leave baby. You start packing. As soon as I’ll reach home we’ll go for shopping and buy gifts for everyone. And for you my dear wify’ He pulled me close ‘I have a very special dinner planned for you.’ And kisses me tight.

He left after doing breakfast together. I packed my bags got ready for him in Special Red dress.Only earring which Prithvi bought up for me on our first night. He always pampered me. He kept my happiness first than him. I didn’t even get to know when I fall for him. I love him more than my life.

And the door bell ringed. ‘Welcome home Baby!’

‘How was your meeting?’ I asked.

‘It was good. And you look beautiful. So, You are ready?’

I give a sweet smile.He got freshen up in 5 minutes. And we gone for shopping first and then for the dinner Prithvi arranged for me. It was near a sea coat Candles and the perfect smell of roses. And the most beautiful part it was only me and him on the coast. We danced that night We smiled together. We laughed together. We loved each other together.

We had a flight at 5in morning.

We boarded a same plane. It has a first stop at Delhi and then Mumbai. And I keeping hold his hand there was something in my heart that was pinching me. And when flight was about to land I said ‘Take care of yourself baby! And Please come soon I’ll be waiting’ I kiss his forehead and leave.

I went at my In-laws home.

At evening I was sitting with my Mother-In-law. Suddenly Raj (Prithvi younger brother) came running in my room. ‘Bhabhi, there was a attack in Mumbai. Terrorist attacked in the Hotel Taj.’

I was broken as it was the same Hotel were Prithvi was living. I saw his missed called on my cell.I kept on trying his number and in my heart I kept praying to God. Every minute passing by the Terror of attack was increasing. Mom got a heart attack. She was in ICU. And I was broken. And the another morning a name of a Victims came in a news paper. Prithivi was there. It wasn’t even a month passed by and My love was killed. I can’t that day 26/11. The day was cursed. And so I lost you.

Sanya was admitted in Mental asylum after this incident. Prithvi mother got a major Heart attack and she died.

P.S. The Mumbai 26/11attack doesn’t only take people lives but it took away some people’s hope.There love. There children. There mother or Their parents. God protect us from the evil spirit and try to help us to make this place a better to live.